it is embarrassing to say, but they actually terrify me… im not sure how to handle it sadly and i dare not tell nicoli cause you know…. he judges. oh, and um, please dont tell dottore! its embarrassing here and i think even my mask would turn red if word spread to my, um, superiors as i think nicoli called it. oh, um, i think im starting to ramble………. im regretting this decision
